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Title: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: euge on November 21, 2012, 02:40:54 AM
I just wanted to let you guys know about some things that have transpired in my life in the last several months.

You know about the death of my dear old Dad- an old Marine, a member of the Greatest Generation and my ultimate Hero.
 
What you don't know is:

Four days after his death I was laid off from my decently lucrative job of 6 years. Three weeks after that an Aunt passed away suddenly. A month after that an Uncle. The family pulls together. In the meantime there are slim pickings in my particular field of expertise. Basically no real jobs to be found in my area for a person of my qualifications. Mentally it got ugly. Thank god for xbox, beer and other things. A fellow laid-off is colleague calling me mirroring my mental state. We support each other. Meanwhile all is chaos and confusion. No responses to my carefully crafted resume and letters of recommendation. I begin to despair. Am I just another statistic of today's Economy?

A slew of part-time jobs appears. I apply for every single one of them. No responses.

Then my Mother passes away three months exactly shy of one hour of my Dad's death. I miss saying goodbye by 10 minutes. The family is devastated yet in no small way relieved since she suffered so. I am trying not to sink into a world of self-pity.

Two days later as we are making arrangements for a funeral a call is received and an Interview is scheduled! The day after the funeral another call comes in from my old organization. They want to interview me. After two interviews with the Director and my soon to be peers I am made an offer- albeit at a diminished compensation rate and part time hours. I quickly and gratefully accept. Will start in December.

Yesterday another recruiter calls me for a part time job and I set up an interview for this afternoon. Surprise! It's a peer interview with Supervisor/Manager present! Goes OK I think... Another one with the Director afterwards. Am told "We will be in touch by middle of next week one way or another..."

By the time I get home the recruiter is calling me with an offer. I take it. Now I have two part time jobs with competing organizations....

All is clear to me now. It has been tough, scary and uncertain. I still have no benefits. I am humbled and chastened. Probably not over yet. And I miss my parents.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: morticaixavier on November 21, 2012, 03:01:43 AM
Wow euge, so much going on. so sorry to hear about all your loss. Glad the job hunt is starting to pan out. I remember, i was unemployerd for over 6 months and I though I might never get a job again.

Now to play them off each other!

Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: Slowbrew on November 21, 2012, 03:09:16 AM
Holy cow!  That's a ton of rough stuff in a very short time frame.  I'm glad to hear things are beginning to look up again.

I think you handled it better than I ever could have.  Keep on chugging man.

Paul
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: weazletoe on November 21, 2012, 03:12:37 AM
Wow dude..... just...... wow. I'm thinking of ya.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: jamminbrew on November 21, 2012, 03:25:46 AM
I was feeling pretty down on myself today, until I read this. Thanks, Euge, for showing me how petty my concerns can be, when someone else's stress is so much more than mine. Kinda puts it all in to perspective. I wish you all the best, and hope things continue to improve!
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: thebigbaker on November 21, 2012, 03:30:54 AM
Takes a strong person to get through all that you have.  Wish you the best and hope everything works out for you. 
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: Pawtucket Patriot on November 21, 2012, 03:39:02 AM
You've pulled through what I can only imagine was one of the most challenging times in your life.  So sorry to hear that things have been so tough, but we're here for ya man!  Stay positive and keep on brewing!
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: jeffy on November 21, 2012, 03:41:38 AM
Good luck, euge.  Loosing so many close family members in such a short time must be awful, but it sounds as if things are looking up.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: dimik on November 21, 2012, 04:01:45 AM
My condolences on your losses, Euge.
I am glad to hear you're pulling through.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: Alewyfe on November 21, 2012, 05:54:07 AM
Dear Euge....I'm so sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing this with your forum family.
I will be sending a lot of positive and healing thoughts your way.

Glad to hear about the job opportunities.  Keep lookin' up.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: 1vertical on November 21, 2012, 05:54:57 AM
Man you know where to find me!  Feel free to call, text, chat whateva
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: The Professor on November 21, 2012, 06:04:32 AM
My condolences...Best wishes to you, euge.

Losing your folks is  tough one;  in some ways, the ultimate rite of passage that generally sneaks up on us later in life.  Despite the maturity that comes with the years, it doesn't make dealing with this any easier. 
But in truth, they are still with you, for as long as they're in your thoughts.

The key to helping me deal with the losses  of my Mom & Dad 18 & 20 years ago was the good memories I carried and continue to carry.  Hopefully, you'll be visited in your dreams...I experience that pleasant  mystery myself quite frequently, even now after all these years. 
And I never fail to wake up smiling when I'm blessed with such a visit.

Here's wishing you peace of mind at a difficult time.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: tygo on November 21, 2012, 11:48:25 AM
That's a tough run Euge.  Sorry to hear about your folks.  Glad to hear things are starting to look up on the job front.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: phillamb168 on November 21, 2012, 12:38:25 PM
Good luck man. I can't imagine what you're going through. Our thoughts are with you.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: redbeerman on November 21, 2012, 01:03:33 PM
Euge, you are the hero here.  Good luck to you man!  Way to keep your chin up when the chips are down.  Bless you.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: hopfenundmalz on November 21, 2012, 02:10:36 PM
You have had a tough run of events. Keep in mind it is darkest before the dawn. Things look to be on the upswing for you. You only have one mother and father, so losing them is a terrible experience. I lost mine a long time back, and you learn to cope with the loss.

Keep your head up. Jobs are a means to an end. They do not define you. Work hard at these part time jobs and you may find good things ahead.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: bluesman on November 21, 2012, 02:37:07 PM
Euge,

I send my condolences.  I'm very sorry to hear about your losses and wish you the best.  You certainly have endured much agony over the past several months.  Keep your head up and stay focused as you'll come out of this soon enough.

Cheers brother!
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: chezteth on November 21, 2012, 02:51:31 PM
Sorry to hear about your loss. Keep your chin up. My thoughts are with you through this difficult time.

Sent from my Galaxy Nexus using Tapatalk 2

Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: euge on November 21, 2012, 03:02:19 PM
Thanks for the kind words folks. We've been blessed for many years with no deaths or critical illnesses in the whole family. To have everything come to a head like this has been a real shock but has brought us all- Aunts, Uncles, Cousins and Nieces closer together. Too easy to drift apart with our "busy" lives and the next thing years have passed. We started saying "we got to stop meeting like this!"

I didn't sleep very well last night. Very excited about working again.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: tonyp on November 21, 2012, 03:52:56 PM
So sorry for your losses Euge, stay strong brotha!
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: maxieboy on November 21, 2012, 06:15:52 PM
Wow. When it rains, it pours. Sorry for your losses. Deaths are always hard but the struggle on the employment front can eat you from the inside out. Been there. Hang tough, it will get better.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: majorvices on November 21, 2012, 07:53:18 PM
Sorry for your tough time, bro. You are obviously made of stone. way to slog through it. Best wishes on the job search.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: weithman5 on November 21, 2012, 08:34:01 PM
you will be in my prayers
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: tschmidlin on November 22, 2012, 07:19:46 AM
Wow euge, that is a tremendous amount of stuff to deal with in such a short period of time!  Be well, reach out if you need to.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: deepsouth on November 23, 2012, 02:10:43 AM
tough times don't last, tough people do.  sounds like you are one of those tough guys.  glad things are looking better.  that's a lot of loss in a very short amount of time.  glad you are here to tell your story.  peace.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: speed on November 24, 2012, 06:54:48 PM
My condolences...Best wishes to you, euge.

Losing your folks is  tough one;  in some ways, the ultimate rite of passage that generally sneaks up on us later in life.  Despite the maturity that comes with the years, it doesn't make dealing with this any easier. 
But in truth, they are still with you, for as long as they're in your thoughts.

The key to helping me deal with the losses  of my Mom & Dad 18 & 20 years ago was the good memories I carried and continue to carry.  Hopefully, you'll be visited in your dreams...I experience that pleasant  mystery myself quite frequently, even now after all these years. 
And I never fail to wake up smiling when I'm blessed with such a visit.

Here's wishing you peace of mind at a difficult time.
+1
this is how i 'talk' to my parents. just keep those dreams and memories close to heart and you'll pull through it.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: euge on November 24, 2012, 08:10:17 PM
It's a good way to look at it. At the Funeral-Home the staff told us they were pleasantly surprised to hear laughter from behind closed doors while we were viewing and identifying my Mother. But it was just us reminiscing about Mom's idiosyncrasies. She was quite a character. We even claimed it wasn't her for a moment! The look on that lady's face was so precious... They're probably still talking about us!

And my parents both have visited me in a couple oddly realistic dreams in the weeks following Mom's passing.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: speed on November 25, 2012, 02:23:48 AM
one of the first dreams i had of my dad after he died back in 94 was of him sitting beside me in the car on the way to his funeral. talk about weird, but you know that was what got me through it.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: rabid_dingo on November 27, 2012, 07:43:18 AM
Wow, I knew about your dad. Same as Dave. Don't hesitate if you see me on G+.

I'll be thinking about you for a while. I have another friend went through a similar year. Rough times for sure
but it gets better.
Title: Re: A changed euge (sorta)
Post by: bluefoxicy on November 27, 2012, 02:56:56 PM
Two part-time jobs is a good start.  Will keep you afloat while you restructure your life and pursue convergence to stability.

As for the other stuff... when people die, they just immediately lose relevance to me.  I have at best blunted human emotion; in the major operation I am a cold, calculating machine and most of my emotion is emulated on top of a logical decision tree that attempts to decide what is appropriate and how much to allow, and what it means.  I still don't understand what 'jealousy' actually is, it seems like nothing more than a huge failing in logic (assigning priority such that irrelevant matters take precedence over highly important matters, leading to the worst outcomes) and so I can't even fake it, much less experience it.

Perhaps you can stop to appreciate being human somewhere in this mess.  The bad comes with the good.