My condolences...Best wishes to you, euge.
Losing your folks is tough one; in some ways, the ultimate rite of passage that generally sneaks up on us later in life. Despite the maturity that comes with the years, it doesn't make dealing with this any easier.
But in truth, they are still with you, for as long as they're in your thoughts.
The key to helping me deal with the losses of my Mom & Dad 18 & 20 years ago was the good memories I carried and continue to carry. Hopefully, you'll be visited in your dreams...I experience that pleasant mystery myself quite frequently, even now after all these years.
And I never fail to wake up smiling when I'm blessed with such a visit.
Here's wishing you peace of mind at a difficult time.